hero_farmboy | on_thecouch

Doesn't everyone have Daddy issues? I know I do and I'm pretty sure mine are... a little more involved than most. And it's not just because I have two fathers, either.

Let's start with my Dad. Jonathan Kent. He was a good man, the kind of man I always wanted to be. I guess I didn't really have “issues” with him so much as any other kid would growing up with a loving and caring parent. I know he was a little overprotective. I can understand that. It didn't always make sense to me at the time, and yeah, that caused some friction, but I get it now. He was also stubborn as hell, which I'm told I've taken after, and that was annoying at times, too. Dammit, I wanted that truck.

What's more important is that I know he loved me, no matter what. He was there for me and he supported me, even if he didn't agree. He may not have liked it too much, but he let me grow up. The biggest issue I have with him now is that he's gone. But that isn't his fault.

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My Father is Jor-El. You could say we have issues. Actually, maybe you couldn't. That's probably the biggest issue right there; I don't know. I get to interact with an AI that's supposed to be him, but is it? Is it more a machine than the man, or is that really who he was? I've met people who actually knew him. They say he was a great man, dedicated to our people. I have to assume that would have to have extended to his family, too. And I know my mother loved him. That much was evident and I find it hard to believe a woman like her would love a man as emotionally cold, distant and uncaring as the AI seems to be.

So who am I talking to? Who's pushing me to become something I'm not sure I want to be and punishing me when I don't fall in line? I don't know. Maybe one day I'll find out. I'm just afraid of the answer.

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